The song that flagged the change

Many moons ago, a new girl group was formed, they rose to the top so quickly they reached iconic status within months. Their music was everywhere and even if you didn't want to, you found yourself singing the lines, humming the tunes, recognising the song from a few bars. Who am I talking about? One of the first girl groups, The Spice Girls.
To say I was NOT a follower is an understatement, but, yes, I listened to the radio, the music channels and I, like millions of others became very familiar with their songs.
I watched the old classic, Top of the Pops one night and all I can hear to this day is, 'what do you want, do you really, really, want?'. It has haunted me ever since.

OK so let's look at this in a different way.

For some reason my unconscious mind flagged this up, over and over again, until I listened. It was telling me I really wasn't happy with what it was I was doing and was attempting to get me to stop running long enough to recognise it.
Truth was, I wasn't, I was teaching and had in all honestly lost all will to live. The pressures of government targets, syllabus limitations, OFSTED expectations, Senior Management directives, cover work setting for an unfilled timetable, marking their books as well as my own, my own classes, the tutor group and their pressures and problems, parental needs and expectations . . . somewhere in there I got lost. I was a teacher 24 hours a day and knew nothing else; surely there was a better way to live?
'What do you want, do you really, really want?' kept echoing through my mind until in the end, the physical body blew its best gasket (the heart) and called it a day.

Now? Well I am not in a school, I run my own business with my own expectations and syllabus. I create and innovate the way I wish to, and cause children to excel in the way they can when given the space in which to express their skills to the limit. I give guidance and advice to parents who want the very best for their children and I have a life of my own!!!

The song led me to change the whole of my perspective on life and gave me one. If you were to ask yourself the self same question what would you come up with? What would you have to change before your body said, enough, and led you down the road to STRESS, HEART DISEASE, NERVOUS DISORDERS and other gentle signs you are living a life outside of your desires?